Manuel Royal<\/p>\n
Melanie\u2019s eyes, as ever, hold me immobile in their manifold gaze. Manifold. Well, they aren\u2019t all looking right at me, but a lot of them are. Melanie\u2019s green eyes are sunshine through new Spring leaves, so clear and fresh-minted; hopeful, somehow.<\/p>\n
Her blue eyes are, say, fathomless crystalline lagoons. Or shards of ice, I don\u2019t know. Blue is blue.<\/p>\n
Melanie\u2019s brown eyes, now, those are something. Sanguine, dreamy, rich and lively in a dozen shades from weak tea to black tar. Wise. They cheer me up on days like this. Every day is like this.<\/p>\n
Melanie\u2019s voice scrapes those thoughts away like a wire brush. \u201cEnough loafing.\u201d She\u2019s come up on my right side, my blind side. \u201cDon\u2019t touch the jar.\u201d Hard, lustrous, like polished rosewood, that voice.<\/p>\n
How does she move around the house without a sound? Never stumbles, never has so much as a bruise on her perfect white, perfect smooth skin.<\/p>\n
I tell her, \u201cOne of them is mine.\u201d (It is: the lone hazel eyeball, always drifting to the bottom of the jar.)<\/p>\n
My own voice sounds like a cranky child. I know Melanie\u2019s little ears, her goddamn batlike ears can detect every little note of failure and inadequacy.<\/p>\n
\u201cMine now.\u201d That\u2019s all she says. She\u2019s already walking away, no hurry, giving me plenty of time to turn and watch. Her silk gown is so sheer I can see the two eyes tattooed on her buttocks. They\u2019re copied off the lady\u2019s eyes in that Rossetti painting, Regina Cordium<\/em>, and they\u2019re mysterious because they\u2019re veiled, and because they\u2019re a little wall-eyed so you can\u2019t tell where they\u2019re looking. But also comical, I think anyway, because they go up and down and they just about describe an infinity symbol as she shifts her weight from the ball of one dainty bare foot to the other and those bountiful hips roll. Oh, and the vertical line between them makes it look like her ass is frowning.<\/p>\n She had those tats done some years back, when she could still see. Her husband called her \u201cFour-Eyes.\u201d His own eyes were brown with green flecks. Cheer-me-up-please eyes, I call them. Currently drifting in the jar, a reminder of more normal times.<\/p>\n How many eyes does one woman need? She\u2019s got her tattooed ass-eyes, plus thirty-three eyes in the jar, plus the two unsleeping golden eyes tattooed on her eyelids, stitched flat across her empty sockets. Those two are a masterpiece. So thirty-seven eyes all told, I guess. The only reason it\u2019s an odd number is because I\u2019m more useful to her if I can see to work. In this kingdom, the one-eyed man is a slave. Guess I save some money not going to those 3-D movies.<\/p>\n (Oh, the guy that did those eyelid tattoos was reputedly the best skin artist in the Valley. Nice easygoing man, always humming to himself. His eyes are clear, grey. In the jar. To me, they look somehow startled. He did not see it coming.)<\/p>\n She drifts off, now, down the long hallway, a willowy pale shape enclosed by four hard planes. All the interior surfaces of the house are stone, floor, walls and ceiling. Little inset lights in odd places. As per her design specs. We live in a tomb. I imagine it helps her find her way around by echoes, and she always seems to know where I am; but her little feet don’t make a sound. No music allowed.<\/p>\n She\u2019s right, anyway, I was loafing, and my chores won’t do themselves. Most of my day is taken up with household repairs, dusting, tending the herb garden. I go out in the afternoon to shop and surreptitiously photograph prospects. I try to pick people who won\u2019t be missed. Some people, their absence might even benefit society. Just two a year, one in January, one in July. The Earth\u2019s perihelion and aphelion, don\u2019t ask me why. She\u2019s got her quirks.<\/p>\n It\u2019s Thursday, so I make grilled lamb cutlets, on watercress with mashed sweet potato and fresh rosemary. Purple Peeps for dessert, as always. Nine months ago, I could only find yellow Peeps, and that was a bad day. I don\u2019t know how she knows the difference, but she does.<\/p>\n Same thing with the white tablecloth. She requires it be spotless, and I\u2019m sure as hell not going to question her ability to detect a stain.<\/p>\n \u201cCome cut up my meat.\u201d Cut her meat, right \u2013 considering what Melanie can do in five seconds with a hot melon scoop, assistance with utensils is the last thing she needs, but it\u2019s one of my duties.<\/p>\n I take my time, enjoying the aroma of real food, lamb and asparagus, rising from her gold-rimmed platter. She hears my deep inhalation, snaps: \u201cThe blinds.\u201d I go open them, let in the amber evening light. I can\u2019t even remember how much I paid to provide this ocean sunset for her every evening; building this house on this hill for this view cost almost all I had in my old life.<\/p>\n Behind me I hear the soft expensive clink of gold-plated dinnerware. She loves her dinner. Seriously; it\u2019s one of three things she loves. My clay bowl is waiting for me, at the other end of the table, I\u2019m not going to forget to eat, but she reminds me every time. \u201cEnjoy your kibble.\u201d<\/p>\n I do. She diminished me to that level practically without effort, the second weekend. I enjoy my kibble.<\/p>\n \u201cLove I Get So Lost\u201d originally appeared online at Dark Valentine<\/em>. <\/p>\n MANUEL ROYAL<\/strong> was born, like Tristram Shandy, with a broken nose. He will die. In between, he lives and writes in Atlanta.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Manuel Royal Melanie\u2019s eyes, as ever, hold me immobile in their manifold gaze. Manifold. Well, they aren\u2019t all looking right at me, but a lot of them are. Melanie\u2019s green eyes are sunshine through new Spring leaves, so clear and … Continue reading